What's Really Been Going On? Secrets I Never Told

by - Saturday, April 06, 2019

One rebrand and almost four years later, I've written a lot on this blog, but none of them are personal. I've written some personal posts but deleted them due to fear of being judged and I also value my privacy, but now I suppose it's time to let you guys know what's been going on in the four years I've been writing on this blog. 

Toward the very tail end of 2015 (around Christmas, literally 6 months after I started this blog) my dad was diagnosed with head and neck cancer (stage 4, which you never ever want to hear when you or someone else is diagnosed with cancer). He started treatment in 2016 and has been undergoing treatment for the past 3 years. The worst part of this whole thing was when chemotherapy stopped working so he switched over to immunotherapy toward the end of 2017/beginning of 2018, and when it spread to his lungs around the same time period. Unfortunately, immunotherapy caused some side effects that were too much and now me and my family can't really go anywhere because of this (which is extremely frustrating for me), but his treatment stops in 2020, so we shall see. 

Another big thing that happened in the almost 4 years that I've been writing this blog is a tough topic. in 2017, one of my cousins committed suicide. It was a real tough time for me and my family because none of us ever experienced that before but it did make us closer. It's so hard when you lose someone that suddenly and without any explanation, but you slowly learn how to heal. You'll also see a couple of posts here and there tagged "For every lost dinosaur", which I started because of this. That tag is basically my attempt to talk about mental health since it's not talked about enough.

The third and final thing that happened is something I've been dealing with all my life, and it's the fact that I have a younger brother who is severely autistic. . Having a sibling with autism isn't exactly something you can talk to other people about, and because of that it made me very isolated from everyone-even my own cousins. My parents did find a program in the state where I currently live (Delaware) and it's why I moved away from my hometown. The program did help, but once he graduated in 2017, it kinda went downhill from there because my state doesn't have the resources to deal with severely autistic adults. My parents eventually ended up putting him in a group home because of my dad being sick, my mom not having any time to look after him as she works full time, and me being in school. He's doing better and we visit him weekly and take him home on occasion for birthdays and holidays

So that's pretty much the end of the things I never told anyone on this blog, mostly because I wanted to keep this blog lighthearted, but figured that it would be generally unreal if I kept it that way. I was told to stop being so tightly guarded, and this is kind of an attempt to stop being so damn private about everything in my life.

How do you like this insight into my life? Are you a private person?


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