My 5 Year Plan Didn't Work and I'm Okay With It

by - Friday, August 23, 2019

Inspire by this post written by the lovely Rebecca, when I was 18 and almost done with high school, I had a whole life plan in my head: go to college, graduate with a degree, move to Europe to be with my then LDRBF, but as we all know, life just doesn't work according  to plan anymore, and that's okay.

It was all part of my 5 year plan to graduate college by 22, but guess what? That didn't happen. I dropped out, worked full time for a while while taking an IT class, and then went back to school in mid 2018 at the grand old age of 23. The good thing is that I'm doing a lot better in my classes than I did when I was 18-21 and I'm so much happier now.

It was in my 5 year plan to move to Holland to be with the boy I met when I was 17, but that's all been thrown in the trash as we split up back in 2016, before the Christmas period, which is a bloody crappy time to be dumped, but it did teach me the importance of being alone and how you can't trust what other people say over the internet.

What I Really Want: 
At 18, I wanted nothing more than to move out of the state I'm in, and I still look forward to moving out, but at 18, I wanted to live in London or Europe. Now, I just want to be close to my family who all live in Texas and I also want to be happy with what I'm doing in life. I just want to create things while being able to live comfortably.

When I started college, I just accepted that I was better off alone and didn't even attempt to make any friends as I was just hateful and spiteful of everyone. I had been backstabbed and walked on so many times, but then I met some pretty rad people online and it changed the way I think about people. They taught me that even though some people will still try to backstab you, not everyone will.

Have you ever had a five year plan?

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